This blog is meant to speak for the women still in the fog and do not realize they are living an emotionally and mentally dangerous lie. I spent too many years asking myself why wasn’t I good enough and how could I be good enough for my ex. I did not trust myself. I did not need to trust myself because the narc/my ex was, God in human form to me. he was always right and I was terrified of his disappointment. Cursing myself for being confused and depressed beyond motion. I know what its like to mistake a red flag for a red rose. I know what its like to shut down when in the presence of a man that was once my prince charming. I know what its like to be praised and destroyed all in the same sentence. I know what its like to be starved of hugs and kisses that I was sure would never stop. I know what its like to be mislead and lied to and apologies for upsetting the liar. I know what its like to not feel valuable and validated unless I was his servant. I also know what its like to read and wake up. I know what its like to be completely financially dependent on a person that I absolutely had to get away from. I know what its like to be clear and crazy at the same time relieved but grieving. I know what its like to realize I have the power and i’m not crazy. I know what its like to be so clear about the bliss that would spill over me if I walked away and never turned back. I know what its like to stand in a new mirror and see a champion and master of my mind and emotions. This blog is for those of us searching for community, answers and remedies. I know what its like to need all of those three thing too!